The worst thing about being a mom is the inability to fix our kids hurts. It is really hard to watch them go through things and not be able to scoop them up and carry them over it. This past week our beloved cat Natalie died. The kids had just bought her special food for Thanksgiving and she died before they were able to give it to her. It's been a hard week around here and yet I can't help but relate this to how God must feel about us.
He as the loving father has to watch us go through hurts, and although he comforts us and is with us the pain is still there. As I have been wishing we could take the pain away from the girls I too wonder if God wishes He could take our pain away. It has given me a little idea of the depth of how much God loves us. What a loving father He is. How much he must ache for these little ones he has created. For all His creation.
In better news. I've been feeling blessed beyond measure. I was invited this past weekend by some ladies at church to go to a Lisa Welchel seminar. Not only did they give me a free ticket but I also won the door prize while I was there and an additional free book by Lisa on advent for kids. I was able to go deeper in a few relationships with some ladies and deeper with God. Ever since moving I have really been missing my deep friendships from the cities and praying for that kind of relationship up here. I think God is starting to honor that request. I have felt very watched out for and protected lately. I love that security. God is so good.
I've really been wondering when.. if ever.. life will slow down for us. Joel will be taking 4 classes 4 nights a week next semester so we literally won't see him for 4 whole days. He has also been informed after the 1st of the year he has to work every other Sat. 8-4. Right now he's been doing every 4th 8-12. I guess that leaves me holding down the fort. Learning to be content with what He has for me right here right now. I'm slowly training in at the funeral home to sell ins. with my dad. I just had another meeting lastnight and am excited for what this could mean for us. Still struggling with how to do it all though. Hopefully it will all just fall into place. Thank goodness I have Grandma nearby and some good babysitters the kids love that I used to babysit myself when I was a teen. I still have Ella. She is an adorable, chubby 8 mo. old now. My kids are so used to her. They dread the day she doesn't come. Her dad was supposed to be laid off in Nov. but his job continued so we are just going week by week at the moment. It sounds like I could keep her thru. Jan. My house is a crazy house most days. Toys are strewn everywhere.. dishes are on the table..shoes are scattered. To be totally honest, I wouldn't have it any other way.
With Thanksgiving tomorrow I am feeling so thankful that I will get to spend it with family. My grandparents who are still living are coming and I am just going to cherish every moment, and hopefully teach my children to do the same.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I'm praying for contentment, in whatever situation we find ourselves in, to reign over our lives.
